Fateful Embarassment

Saturday the 4th of March was a day pouring with tear-drops. The heavens and celestial clouds showered upon us with disgrace, embarassment and misfortune. It was the second round of the auditions for the talent show. It was held in Howard Cafe in the Main Campus of AUC. Our spirits were high although I dreaded Howard Cafe. I wasnt worried about the lyrics. The only tension I felt was when I tried to remember the tune and melody of our song. I didnt bother about the sequence of verses because I was sure i would get it right. A call from my rhythm guitarist outside Howard Cafe brought all the trembling to my limbs. I had done it before and reassured myself with the musical highlight of last year. We setup the instruments and tested them cautiously infront of staring eyes so, so close. All eyes were peircing me as I tried to dodge them. I tested the mic and checked the sound. After a round robin of checks we decided it was time to start. "one-two-three", a breathe and then I started. My voice came out quivering and untuned at first but slowly it got better. All I remember somewhere in the middle of the song was looking to my left and seeing Momtaz not playing. I was like, "What the hell is going on?". It was the beginning of another verse and he was standing there paused in disbelief and confusion. He started playing the verse and then I somehow thought that we had entered the last verse of the song, so I started singing the last verse instead of the verse before last. We finished and with ill spirit the guitarist finished the song, with a "shokran ya gama3!!!". We left embarassed, heads-down and cursing the day we started playing music. It was over. It ended with a fall we were not ready for. I exited the building from a rear door and sat in silence. I didnt even know I had skipped one whole verse of the song until David brought me the unfortunate tidings. It was then that I felt the unbelievable betrayal of time and the curse of concentration. I had messed up bigtime. I was too embarassed to walk back and see my friends play. I sat imagining that each person I passed would call out, "Oh look, there's the looser!!!". When I decided to go back and whitness the rest of the auditions I got some believe-it-or-not positive feedback and ofcourse the negative that I already knew. The drummer screwed the tempo of the song. The guitarists sucked mud. Anyways, maybe afterall this was for the good. I had tonnes of other stressful things to finish and put aside.
Arga3 wa a2ool El-Humdulilah!!! It could have been worse.
I know it is impossible, but there is always a part of me that doubts truth. Sometimes I believe in miracles, but in this day and age miracles are extraordinarily rare. You never know what the future holds for us. Life has mysterious ways of revealing itself to its victims.
InshAllah Kheir

The Real World Wide Web and The Katakeet Invasion!!!

The world of politics is the real World Wide Web. Confusing, delirious and insane as it is, it creates a web of uncertainity, illusion and deception. Today, Secretary of State Rice arrived in the Middle East and tries to police her way to the so called "right". It is not right for one country to police the world. :x

A historian is arrested for denying the holocaust. They call him anti-semitic!!! The Semite Languages constitutes Hebrew, Amharic, Aramaic AND ARABIC. Why was nothing done when a Danish newspaper published comics ridiculing Prophet Mohamed (PBUH) while anti-Jewish sentiments are suppressed with excessive force immediately. The majority of the Arabic-speaking population is Muslim as the Hebrew-speaking population is Jewish. This is the web that has caught people upside down, inside out and diagonally inverted. Who is to blame? Well...western media, sinister zionist Jews (read The Protocols of Zionism for God's sake!!! Read about the conspiracy that lies embedded in the word controlling it with coaxing evil!!!), anti-Islamic and anti-Arab movements, Muslim fundamentalists...are some. This is the web that has the world in an intertwined cauldron of glue. Politics is dirty! Thats one thing I'm certain of.

This week Egypt has been occupied by Avian Flu (aka Bird Flu). Katakeet are terrorizing people everywhere! They have entered the streets of Cairo! Beware of the Katkoot el sharess who leads this rebellion against man. Today the Egyptian government or I dont know who spread the rumour, said that the Nile waters are infected and should not be drunk. Interesting that only now the Nile waters have become undrinkable. How many dead horses have I seen in the river? I wonder...

History Repeats Itself

This passed weekend was going to be a relaxing one. To my delight it proved to be quite the oppositte. I got a phone call Thursday night and with the drum beat I heard in the background history smacked me accross the face. The auditions for The Talent Show turned out to be the next day. I met the band (BeAtLesS) and jammed for about two hours. The next day we played infront of the judges. It was history repeating itself. I discovered an ecstatic flame light up inside me as it had lit up a year prior. A flame to sing, to perform, to be on stage again and feel the power of controlling 2,300 people like sheep beneath me. It was the ultimate feeling standing above a sea of people cheering you like energetic bobbing heads and arms. I will never forget that night. Now, looking back upon that day, I only wish it to happen again. I was informed yesterday that we had made it passed the initial auditions to ROUND 1 on the 3rd of March. Its much tougher this year; they only want five bands so I'll be crossing my fingers and InshAllah kheir.

At The Foot of a Ladder

Well this is my first entry. I really hope I carry on blogging my life onto the internet for the whole world to see. Tonnes of thanx go directly to Mai Dawood for introducing me to this wonderful way of portraying thoughts, idea...etc. Thanx a million Mai! Anywayz as usual got work tomorrow and it's already 1 am so I got to "hit the sack" as ShuShu would put it.

I hope to write an entry every now and then when something interesting takes place in my life so stay tuned...